wagonizing

1. State of edgy sobriety abstaining from alcohol until the next time you get
together with friends. 2. The state of being of recuperation after partying too
much and anticipating the next time you're going to hurt yourself all over
again. 3. The state of being of doing something which you wonder "how the
heck did I get here?!" 4. Doing something that doesn't quite make sense -
realizing that it doesn't - yet keep doing it because you haven't figured out
something better to do so you keep doing it until then.